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Quiet night... Cleaning done, all house members are asleep (or close to it)... Lately I have been doing some deep thinking, a little soul-searching, if you will. The question that has been nagging at me is, "Who am I? Where did Brooke go?"

I am sure that many mothers go through the same thing, but it has proven to be a tough issue for me to tackle. For the last 4 years, I have been in full-force Mommy Mode. Now that our family situation has changed, I have more time to myself to think... maybe too much time to think. I struggle with getting out of my head, and I worry and stress about a lot of different things.

While questioning who I am, who I have become, who I would like to become, I usually list the things that I used to have a strong interest in. Art, photography, spending time outdoors (camping and such), going to see live music... I still do some of these things from time to time, but where I have trouble is being motivated to do these things.

I know that hearts take time to heal, but I am starting to feel more like a whole person. I have been broken for too long, and it is time to take control of my life and make it what I want it to be.

I am trying. I am going to get it all figured out. I have two amazing children that keep me going; and I have some of the best friends a person could ask for... they make for an amazing support system, and manage to keep me level-headed on the bad days.

This post was just a random thought, I will probably be using this blog as a journal... I am so happy that it is a new year. I can't wait to read back through this in a year and see how much better things have gotten.

:)